I saw a man sitting alone today...



Hey guys, I know it's a damn shame that it's been a whole week since I've written anything but, fortunately or unfortunately however you wanna look at it, nothing much has been goin on. Yes, Brooke did come for her visit and it was fantastic. In fact, I'm still in a sort of "depressed mood" since she left so we're just not gonna talk about it. Let's just say I enjoyed having her here. I did however, notice something this evening while I was eating dinner at Cracker Barrel with my family that made me think.

Of course, as on any other Wednesday evening the restaurant was far from crowded. We were nearing the end of our meal and the time where conversation starts to dwindle and blank stares across the room commenced. I looked around at the semi full dining room and noticed different families, lovers and friends enjoying their meals and the company that the person across the table from them provided. A I turned my head in the direction of my proverbial "3 o'clock" direction I noticed an older gentleman sitting by himself at a table for "two". The man wasn't wearing anything too out of the ordinary but there was just something about him that changed my quick glance at him into a stare. The man was alone.

While I know that it is perfectly okay to go out and enjoy a meal by yourself if you so please to, something just struck me oddly about this man. As I glanced at him I noticed that every movement he made was precise and calculated. As if he were used to a routine of sorts. He seemed to be fairly comfortable which lead me to assume that the man was a regular at this eating establishment but his comfort also lead me to believe that he had grown accustomed to being alone. I put myself in his situation. If I were alone at a table waiting for my meal I would be a nervous wreck. I would fidgit, play that stupid game on the tables at every Cracker Barrel or simply mess with my phone. In no way could I ever act so comfortably "alone".

After watching the gentleman sit there with his suspenders and hair laid to the side I began to really notice his "old fashioned" style. The style seen now a days on the "TV Land" station. Wrong or right I then made a huge assumption that would eventually bring the creation of this blog post. I began to feel sorry for this man. As a child I was taught that one of the essential "needs" of a human being is love. Now I know that love doesn't necessarily have to come from a spouse but as much as it pains the immature "young stud" persona in me, I must admit that when I reach that age the love of a spouse is all that will matter to me.

No one wants to be alone. Even a hermit wants companionship of some sorts. Be it a pet or inanimate object (Wilson in the movie Castaway), human beings need love. Seeing this man sitting there alone in his suspenders and gingham shirt made me want to go an have a conversation with him. He seemed as though he would love the company.

I dont really know why seeing this gentleman alone bugged me so much but it did. Who knows? Maybe he was an old widow who longed for someone, ANYONE to show him that he DOES matter in a world where change is ever present as he sits in a restaurant resembling a statue that depicts the "simpler times". Or maybe he was simply having a dinner alone at Cracker Barrel because, he needed a break from his loving bountiful family. I'll never know..but what I DO know is that I gained a better understanding of one's place in this world.

Hmmm..nothing to say



Well, the title kinda explains it all folks. I'm tryna stay consistent with this whole blogging thing but at the same I feel as thought I shouldn't be taking the "Easy way out" by simply putting up youtube videos for you guys. This is where reader interaction really comes into play! You guys feel the need to come back and check up on things so it only makes sense that you guys provide me with some suggestion of what you wanna see! Oh well moving along, what you see pictured above is not your everyday super hero or caped crusader. Actually, she's not a super being at all, it's my adorable (and strange) girlfriend Brooke.

While I could just post pictures of her all day just for fun, there's actually reasoning behind this Brooke sighting. Just a reminder that she will be coming to visit this coming friday and will be staying in town until sunday. Yup that's right so if you wanna see the wonderful woman who keeps this guy sane and motivated here's you FIRST chance. Feel free to suggest something at anytime. Brooke wants to see each and every one of you...seriously :) . I only ask that you give us Saturday morning and afternoon as alone time seeing as we couldn't celebrate the "regular" Valentine's day and we'll instead celebrate then. lol call us corny but we wanna get dinner and have a "date".

Besides the Brooke news there isn't really much else on my mind (can you blame me?). All I can say is there are good things on the horizon. I'm trying my hardest not to count my chickens before they hatch or to "tease" you guys too much but let's just say I have a lot of Modeling/Acting oppurtunites on the horizon and "HeartlessMARC" (no he's not dead!) may be coming back to the music world way sooner than previously expected.

Stay tuned and keep reading.....and gimmie some DAMN FEEDBACK!


Epic "WIN" of the day?

Well instead of the usual FAIL of the day, I stumbled across a video that was full of soo much fail that it's actually a "win".. check it





The stressed blogger is back...



What's good everybody? I'm tryin my hardest NOT to abandon this blog again so I literally have to drag myself to the computer in order to update you guys. First things first, I've had a ton of you guys ask me about it but, I've been blowin you guys off saying things like "wait for the blog post!!". Well here it is, the answer to your question.."WTF happened with the L.A situation?!?"


Well I'm not gonna b.s you guys, so lemme just get it out there. No. I did not get the $1,000. I needed the money by Saturday afternoon and as I sat on my couch with $500 in my hand I came to the conclusion that it just wasn't meant to be. Of course I was in denial for a while and almost went to "drastic" measures to get the money. In the end though, I just realized that 7 days was not enough time to come up with that kinda money.

Don't fret little ones there is great news that followed the sad epiphany previously mentioned however, at this current time I am in no position to share the news with you. Just know this..when one door closes on you, remember there is always the window! lol stay tuned guys!!


FAIL of the day

Yea so I'm gonna follow up that HOT Chris Brown mixtape with this "musical" entry...smh



Hot New Music!! Chris Breezy







Hot new mixtape from Chris Brown and DJ Drama Download below!!

Today is one of those days...



It seems that every single thing I tried to accomplish today was a failure. I can't remember a day in recent history where every single thing I've done has blown up in my face. and it's not even 3 yet!! oh well, make sure guys download the MGK "100 Words and Running" mixtape in the post below.

That was probably the only thing that worked out today. Dope music I can ride to, thas wassup. Anyways my efforts to get $1,000 by saturday is taking a major hit. I'm tryna stay focused cuz I want this so bad. Regardless if I obtain it or not at least I tried. It wont be the end of the world just a disappointment. hmmmm I hope the Cavs at least win tonite..

Good Music!!


The boy Machine Gun Kelly, my favorite Cleveland rapper (Sorry Chip and Cudi), just dropped his brand new "100 Words and Running" mixtape. This shit is fire trust me.



Download Link BELOW!!

Download: here

Stepping up in the clutch Part 2


So I promised you guys some videos and what not so here ya go.
First off the official website of the IPAC event is here. Since the IPAC event is a little more exclusive in the amount of people they accept from agencies and "off the street" there is less video footage available. So I'll post some IMTA videos so you guys can get the idea.




The above movie is just one of the numerous events that all guests of the conventions can participate in. The list of events includes numerous model and talent workshops and seminars along with the many showcases: Sitcoms, Cold Read, Soaps, Singing & Dance, Monologues, TV Commercials, Commercial and Fashion Print, Trendy Runway, High Fashion Runway and Swimwear Runway.

You guys remember more physical goals for summer? Well needless to say my deadline has been pushed forward. If I attend this conference there is NO way im gonna be a laughing stock in the swimwear competition. I'm on the right path as far as bulking up now I just need to start chiseling.





After watching the video you should notice that A. Most of these dudes really arent too built to be honest. and B. The swimwear is more like underwear. I'm definitely not saying I'm the best lookin dude in the world in a bathing suit but look at this dude at 3:17.. LMFAO sorry homie even the girls recording the video say "ewww".

Well like I said before I'm currently tryna get this dough together so I can make this trip! (im gonna sell my xbox and games =[ sadface... ) Gotta do what I gotta do. Thanks for readin talk to you guys soon

Stepping up in the clutch Part 1


Hey guys long time no see i know, i know. Well I promise you I have a "juicy" blog post for you guys so read on! As you may remember (or you can just scroll down) last time I wrote on here I told you guys that I was preparing for a big audition at my agency. Well I was a little confused on the details of said audition and unintentionally gave you guys some false information. I told you guys that I would be auditioning at my agency in front of a few agents from different places including L.A. Well that wasn't quite true. Instead I came to find out I was auditioning in front of the three talent evaluators of my agency for a chance to be selected to represent our agency IN L.A for a huge convention and perform in front of thousands of agents from across the globe, literally...see my mistake? lol needless to say I was nervous..


Lemme start at the beginning. My appointment was scheduled for 2pm. this past Sunday (superbowl sunday). So naturally, I spent the entire time from 10-11:30 tryna figure out what I'm gonna wear. Finally I decided on a burgundy top, black pants, brown shoes and a tie that had all three colors. Trust me it looked alot better than it sounds. I arrive at the office and pull into my space next to a car with a 22ish year old guy in it smoking, I'm assuming he's waiting for his girlfriend to finish her audition but who cares. Naturally tho, I tend to blast music when I'm nervous or upset so when I pulled in I just so happened to be blasting "Sexy Bitch".

Coming off as a arrogant douchebag: check.

I walk inside to a packed reception room. It looked like one of those Texas beauty pageants. There were kids with dresses and heels all over. Well maybe only 6 but it felt like more. Needless to say between the big hair and high heels it was a pedophiles trip to "heaven" but, I digress. I also noticed that there were about 6 or 7 hopefuls that were closer to my age sitting in their chairs staring in to space. "Hey Marc!!" yells Matthew, the gay guy who works in the office but, is a BEAST with makeup and styling, trust me. This guy has styled numerous celebs, he knows his shit. "You look good today!" I smile, gay guy or woman if someone tells me I look good I'll take it. I check in with Diana and sit down next to a 12 year old and her father. You know how when you're at a restaurant or anywhere in public and no matter how hard you try NOT to listen you still hear their pointless conversation? Well that happened. This little girl was a cocky little brat too. Hope it works for her.

For the 20 minutes I sat there waiting I think I read the same poster 10 times and I think looked at my phone 15 times without actually texting anyone. We were all waiting for the noon auditions to end so we could go to the audition room. My agency was holding these auditions for their students and for people "off the street" who thought they had what it takes. The auditions were held all weekend long so I knew since it was sunday the judges would be tired of the bullshit...great. Finally Diana gets up and tells us to follow her down the hallway to the audition room. This room is rather big and the first thing you notice is the runway. Oh, how I hate that thing. I've tripped and stumbled on that thing in class more times than I can count. I stared it down as we walked in, I guess it was my way of trying to "punk" an inanimate object.

Diana told us to all have a seat and the judges would be in shortly. She put on a DVD and told us to watch it as she left the room. At THIS moment I finally realized what was going on. We watched a video on an event called the IMTA. International Model and Talent Association. This event is held every year in either New York or L.A. it's a huge event that hosts contestants and talent seekers from all over the globe. Don't believe me? check it out. This event is an outstanding way to come in contact with the industry's who's who and to immediately launch you career. Some successful participants? Ashton Kutcher, Jessica Biel, Katie Holmes, Sean William Scott..just to name a few. Along with the IMTA we also learned about the IPAC. International Performing Arts Conference. Which is very similar to the IMTA except it is smaller scaled and more "Exclusive". This is what we were auditioning for. The IPAC event being held in L.A this coming June. This little "News Flash" smacked me across the face. I was extremely nervous now.

After the video the judges walk in and sit down at the table which is positioned at the end of the runway. There are three judges and they consist of Matthew (the stylist/ talent booker), Anthony (Talent booker) and Susan (The director of Stone Modeling). It had a real "American Idol" feel to it. We go up there do a runway walk, read a commercial script, answer some questions and then the judges eventually tell us if we're going to Hollywood or not. *gulp
Susan starts off by welcoming all of us for coming (some of us for coming for a second or third year to try out, ouch) and tells us what the judges want to see. She wishes us all good luck and calls up the first person.

The first one to be called just so happened to be the cocky 12 year old I sat next to. she walks to the stage and Matthew starts the music. "Candyman" by Christina Aguilera, lol. The little girl almost runs through her walk and show little to no technique...atta girl pumpkin, you show those judges! sarcasm. When she is finished she reads a Goldfish crackers script repeatedly stumbling over the words Pepperidge Farm. It is at THIS moment when I see her on stage with her arm visibly shaking, that I manage to swallow my nerves and actually become "excited" and ready to show the judges my stuff. The judges are nice to her and bid her on her way. After our auditions we are supposed to schedule a follow-up meeting within 48 hrs. This follow-up is a one on one in which the judges tell us how they really feel. How delightful.

Next one of those "theater" type kids gets called on. She says she's 15 but she looks way too young for the bright red lipstick she's wearing. Her walk is "okay". She had poor technique but she did walk with attitude. Always a plus. She did a good job reading her M&M's script and then sang a musical number. It wasn't half bad either.

Next I'm called upon. Well that was a shocker. Seeing as I was one of the last ones to arrive, I didnt expect to be called so soon. Reguardless, I was ready to kill this shit. I walk to the stage and take a deep breath and wait for "Cadyman" to start playing. I walk across the stage smoothly with a smile and nail those damned pivots that cost me that Bridal show. I walk down the runway with attitude and get to the end of it flashing my pearly (off-colored) whites. *Everyone claps*
That was a nice surprise. I then read a Red Bull script with ease surprisingly without stumbling or ignoring any punctuation. Now I'm asked questions.

Marc do you sing or dance? I sing in the shower and I dance at clubs. -the judges laugh
Do you have abs? Not all 6 of them. - they laugh again and appreciate the honesty
Are you nervous? Yes ma'am.
Well you aren't showing it.. Well honestly, I feel that I need to show confidence in myself no matter how nervous I am. Since I figure that if I can't show you guys that I'm confident in myself then, there's no way I should expect you to be confident in me to represent us in L.A. - they liked that answer

I thank them for there time and head back to the office to make my follow up appointment with Diana. Monday (the next day) at 4, see you then.

I come back Monday anxious to hear the final verdict. A woman named Victoria greets me and takes me into her office. She closes the door and sits down. I'm sitting here waiting for the follow up interview to begin and while I'm thinking of answers to potential question in my head, she interrupts my thought process by saying "They loved you, they want you to go". I had to do a quick double take and I'm sure I looked at her funny. She finally smiles like a big secret has been let out and she says "Congratulations!". I'm not used to good news so quite frankly, I dont know how to react. I just say "That's great". Long story short we sit there and she tells me how I will need to stop taking the classes I currently am and move to a specified class that will prepare me and the 10 other selected representatives for our trip to the conference.

Good news right I'm going to L.A to potentially get discovered!!!!!!

not so fast..

This won't be free. Like everything in life it comes at a price and the biggest obstacle here is the fact that I need to somehow muster up $1,000 by Saturday. are you kidding me?! Talk about short notice. This is a big step towards my dream though and my future. I'm gonna have to make some sacrifice but there's no way I'm gonna let this opportunity pass me up..

Well I've been sitting here typing for hours now and I need to get movin. I'll be back later tonite to give you guys more details and videos in part 2




Hey Strangers :)


Well well well, look who decided to show up! Yea I know I havent been on here in a while but, I'm gonna try to reverse that trend and get back into it.Hmm so I guess I should update you guys on a few things. First thing's first, as you guys may or may not remember I put up a blog post not too long ago about my girlfriend Brooke coming to Cleveland this weekend and you guys getting a chance to meet her. Well forget I said that. Unfortunately a family issue came and she needs to be home this weekend so that means no visit from my baby :( . On a bright note tho, she will be coming to visit the weekend of the 19th. 2 weekends from now. That's good for the fact that I get to figure out more fun ish for us to get into lol.

Hmmm what else? Oh yea, it seems that this Sunday my agency is having a big showcase for some talent agents and I'm scheduled to perform a monologue, commercial script and runway walk. How exciting... This is a pretty big deal for me because, not only is it a chance for myself to be scheduled for work but, it is also a chance for me to show my agency how much I've learned so far in class and that I;m a capable and dependable client. So I'll keep you posted as far as what happens with that!