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Lemme guess, you guys thought I'd never come crawling back to you did you? Well contrary to popular belief this blog is NOT dead and I'm here to bring it back in all it's glory!! (deja vu right?) I'm sorry guys I've just been busy on the never ending pursuit of happiness. I'm gonna try to update you guys on things as best I can while trying to leave out all of the "boring" stuff. Summer is right around the corner and another chapter in my life is ready to be written. But, before we get to all that let's go over some sparknotes (see what I did there? book reference?...ehhh you get it) of things that took place during my hiatus.

Music:

Yes I am still doing music. In fact I am more involved in music now then I have ever been. I kid you not when I say that I am writing anything and everything that comes to my mind on a daily basis. Not everything "literally" but, as far as concepts ideas and rhymes go, I am transferring all thoughts to paper. I am still working hard to plan out exactly how I want to construct and deliver this upcoming mixtape to you guys in 2011. One of the hardest things I had to overcome was "finding my voice". As a long time fan of music and not actually a participant so to speak, I've subconsciously acquired characteristics and musical deliveries from artists that I like. This is a terrible habit.
When trying to establish yourself as an artist in ANY genre of music not just rap, you have to make sure you try to distinguish yourself from others. Most importantly you have to find YOUR voice. When it comes down to it I want my music to be an extension of me. Not a product of "what's cool" or "what's popular". Music to me is a form of self expression. Some people see it as a means to riches others as a means to fame etc etc.. I want listeners to feel as tho they are in my shoes for that 3 and a half minutes or so that they are listening to my song. My music has moods to it. If I'm sad I want you to feel it. If I'm feeling like I'm the best rapper around then I want you to hear my reasoning behind it. Songs are supposed to be a form of communication that is almost like a P.A system connected to my thoughts. I want you to feel the feelings behind every track. Patience is key. The music is coming soon

So what are you doing besides working on songs?

Well currently I am working 3rd shift at Walmart in Streetsboro. *gasp* You went to a private high school and left college to work at Walmart?!? haha no. I left college because I currently have no desire to be there. Could I drive back to Purdue and say "Sign me up" right now? sure I could but, that's not my aim right now. I want to do music it's my passion and one of the few things that makes me smile now a days. In order to achieve your dreams you have to do a little dirty work. Every night that I drag myself to work (my shift is from 10 pm - 7 am) I remind myself of my goal. The middle aged people I work with urge me to go back to school every single day. "You don't wanna end up here for the rest of your life. You're such a bright young man". I hear it every night. I tried to inform them that I have bigger aspirations and dreams than becoming apart of the corporate world after college but alas, my statements fall on deaf ears. I don't really blame them , I mean how many people that up and leave school actually are happy in life? Who knows and who cares...I guess I'm stubborn.

What happened to modeling and acting?

Well to put it short nothing "happened" to modeling and acting I'm just waiting for a "break". Actually while we're on the subject of that I have an audition tmrw similar to the audition I passed awhile back but ended not being able to participate in the event. Tmrw I am auditioning to travel with my agency to NYC for a big showcase in front of talent scouts in all the fashion and marketing world. Yea.. I guess I need to go get my eyebrows waxed today huh?


What else?

Besides all of that stuff going on I recently went on a trip to Washington D.C with muh lady Brooke and it was everything I needed. Everytime I see that woman I swear I fall more and more in love with her. I don't know if I'm starting to grow "old" or what but it seems like companionship and love in steadily moving up on my list of priorities. Never would I have thought that I would feel as though I needed someone around me in order to keep me sane. I feel as though I'm in a type of love triangle that is based more on necessity than desire so to speak. If Brooke is my love then music is my mistress. That made alotta sense huh? yea, it was just as confusing in my head also.
All in all I'm excited to take steps forward because the best thing about your future is you can always change it. Unlike the past who's ink has long dried, the future is merely a blank page waiting for YOU to write the epic ending. Take care everyone, talk to you guys soon

New ish... "Daze"



I'll admit I'm not a big fan of most of souljaboy or his SODMG crew's music but, when I heard this new track by Jbar I had to put it up... He has a unique voice that makes the hook really "pop"...no homo tho

Lmao



I saw this and I had to put this up for you guys lol

Wiz Khalifa Interview

Christopher Truth + Peter Academy + Wiz Khalifa from Christopher Truth on Vimeo.




One of my favorite artists out right now hands down.. OKAYYYYYYYYYYYY

Drake - Over (Music Video)

Cypher 1



Yesterday I spent a good amount of the day (5 hours) at my dude Trav's house working on a custom beat for my intro track to the upcoming mixtape. While I was there I figured I may as well go record this quick 16 I've been carrying around for a lil while now so, like I promised in an earlier post, I will be giving you guys 16 bars about once a month that will NOT be on the mixtape but, are simply something for you guys to listen to in the meantime. That being said, I found this beat on youtube and there were a bunch of artists in the youtube community spittin to it so I thought I might as well have a lil fun with it. Link is below...enjoy!

HERE WE GO YALL - Marc By Design (MBD)

April Fool's!!!!

Yes, the post below was a joke. And you were tricked...sorry we couldn't resist the holiday spirit!!!

A Giant Step


This is honestly gonna be one of the most excited you'll ever see me in a blog post. You may be wondering why I have a picture of the liberty bell above. Well as you all know the liberty bell is located in Philadelphia..so.... guess what?!? Im moving to Philly!! lol

I know I put alotta reflective blog posts up and alotta posts about seizing opportunity and "living your life" to the fullest well guess what..I'm actually following my own advice. I realized that I can't live without Brooke and there's no way I wanna let anymore time go by without having my love by my side. Brooke and I have been discussing moving in with each other for quite some time now and we decided that April 15th is the date!! Since we're moving in with each other I decided we may as well make this as "official" as possible....

We're engaged!! Of course we're not getting married anytime "soon" so to speak but, we are both ready to start our lives together! Love truly does conquer all.


I love you with all my heart Brooke and I can't wait for us to embark on our journey through life together!!



Adventure to Maryland



As most of you already know, this past weekend I made a trip to maryland in order to spend a few days with Brooke and to meet some of her friends and family for the first time. Let me just start off by saying the drive was not fun at all! It isn't until you embark on a 6hr + drive that you realize how crappy the music on your ipod is. I literally ran out of things I wanted to hear after 3 hours. Driving through Pennsylvania isn't one of the most enjoyable things I've ever done in my life but, some of the scenery was beautiful indeed. It allowed me to see vast farmlands (that I saw plenty of in Indiana during my Purdue stint) and some mountain ranges. The worst part though, was as I continued along the never-ending highway system all I could think about was how I was missing out on my protein and friday "Leg" workout!! smh...dedication gone wrong

The actual visit itself overall, was a good one. I visited/ hung out with about 12 friends or family members of Brooke's (13 if you include her cute dog.....yea I said "cute" deal with it). In all honesty some people I had a really enjoyable visit with while with others my eyes stayed glued to the clock. All in all I found everyone to be nice in some way and it made the visit a short but, worthwhile one.

Soundtrack To My Life video

DatNewCudi.com: KiD CuDi - Soundtrack 2 My Life (Directed by Jason Goldwatch) from DatNewCudi / DP on Vimeo.

What Are You Made Of?


Have you ever just stopped what you were doing and taken time to get in touch with yourself? No..not like that you pervs...I mean really sit alone in a room or wherever you may be and close your eyes and "Wander" in your own skin?

I honestly don't know if one would consider this to be a form of meditation or not but, I have a little thing I like to do every once in a while when I find myself stressed or alone. Ever since we were born we all as human beings have a thirst for knowledge and discovery. No child ever exhibits a desire to be ignorant. Newborn children are always staring at things, grabbing things and putting things in their mouths because, that is their own way of making sense out of this complex world they were thrust into. As we grow older some of us continue to pursue knowledge at a rapid pace while others of us become a little more content with of place in the universe. Though the desire for knowledge never dies entirely, we may simply partially extinguish the figurative "flame".

One thing I've come to realize which eventually lead to my "self-awareness" moments, was the fact that as human beings we all have bodies yet we really don't know much about them. It amazed me when I sat here and thought to myself "my soul has been in this body for 20 years yet, I feel as though I don't know exactly how it works". It baffles me how people can't want to know how everything around them works yet most of us barely have a clue as to how we ourselves "work". I mean yes, we know certain things. We know about white blood cells and how to go to the bathroom and how to have sex and blah blah blah....but there is a infinite amount of things that our complex bodies do without us even knowing.

The "meditation" practice that I find myself doing from time to time is actually quite simply. I will sit alone in a quiet room with my eyes closed and take slow and deep breaths, breathing in and out of my mouth. As I sit breathing I will take my hands and touch different areas on my face, throat, chest and stomach and feel ever movement made by my body. Like I said this isn't masturbation, I'm not tryna get "off" lmao...but, it is me tryna "see" the factory inside of my body working as it does the most common function that any human body does...Breathe.

Breathing is simple, complex and vital all at the same time. This amazes me. If you ever have some free time I encourage you to simply slow down and take a look inside yourself. It is a very relaxing and sometimes enlightening experience.

Steady Gains...Diet Update


"Hey Marc, what ever happened to your diet?"

Well avid reader of MARC in Full Effect, I'm glad you asked lol. The weight gain diet is going great. I have consistantly been in the gym four days a week rain, sleet, snow or beautiful weather (those days are the hardest). When I first wrote to you guys and told you about my goal to be 190lbs by the end of the year I was approx. 165lbs at the time. Sitting here typing this post I currently sit at a nice LEAN (very important...I wanted to gain muscle weight..not simply fat) 183lbs. My diet has me feeling more energetic and alot stronger than ever. Not to mention with the increase in water and vast decrease in alcohol and soda (yea, I said soda not pop...that's the Jersey in me haha) my skin is looking better and brighter than ever, which is always good for getting in front of the camera.

I am extremely happy with what I've done so far but I am far from content. I set this goal and as far as I'm concerned it has not been accomplished yet! So ima keep it up and you guys stay tuned.

Ps. I appreciate all of you guys that have been supporting me in obtaining this goal remember:

Encouragement leads to Accomplishment!!

Awwwwwww




It was cute...what can I say?

Cool stuff



Niceeee

Fail of the day





lolwut?

MGK Re-post



Just reposting this in case you guys missed it the first time. Here's the first single from the homie Machine Gun Kelly's upcoming album "Kellyvision"..Check it out and get hip!!

Also, if you haven't yet already make sure to scroll down and downland the "100 Words and Running" mixtape by MGK



The late-night Thinker


I really don't know what it is about the nighttime but, it really seems to go hand and with my personal "reflection" time. Every night I fight off numerous thoughts, ideas and random imaginations in my head in order to try to muster up a good night's sleep. I've found myself many a times just staying up through the night and vowing to regain the lost sleep tmrw..yea, that never actually works out but nonetheless, I find myself in said situation once again. I've found that when I'm alone in my room without any music blasting or mindless T.V shows blaring, my own thoughts tend to "scream" at me. It's almost as if when the sun goes down and the midnight hour is a couple hours behind me, my own conscience wants me to have a conversation with it. It's strange really. As I sit here in contemplation it almost feels as if I'm not merely thinking to myself but rather, I'm conversing with myself..hmmm

Iron Man 2



I can't wait for this to come out

NEW CHIP!!

Chip Tha Ripper - "Like That" - [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO] from Mid C Media on Vimeo.

Hip Hop's Freshman class


Every year XXL magazine releases their choices for the new hip hop "freshman class". This honor is given to artists who are just starting to establish themselves as major players in the music industry. The actual magazine issue won't be hittin shelves until later into March but until then I encourage you guys to download the mixtape features this year's new class!


^Download Link

Where You Been?!?



Waddup bums? =] ...Nah I didnt forget about you guys, my picture above should explain it all! Even though I haven't been around to provide you guys with my insight and wisdom, I've been doing things that you're sure to love. Yes, I'm finally getting back to my music ish. Why? well first of all it's my passion but second of all THE TIME IS RIGHT. For my upcoming projects I'm gonna be doing things MY way and I'll be putting 110% of my effort into this. Don't believe me? fine, wait and see..hater. So what exactly does this mean?

Well here is the tentative plan for everything.. I am hoping to have the mixtape done and ready for your ears by February 2011. Yes, 2011...I am NOT going to rush this. Good things come to those who wait. I may not have a college degree but I know that only a fool would try to rush to success. Don't fret though.. Along the way up until the release of the yet, untitled mixtape I will release "freestyles/cyphers" whenever I feel like it. Just stay posted. I plan on going about this the right way. The name of the game is ANTICIPATION...the more you build, the more success will come from it...or let down. But, that is a risk I'm more than willing to take.

I really hate giving deadlines but, what I hate even more than that is false promises so with that being said I'm gonna tell you guys to be on the lookout for the first non-mixtape related download to be available by April.

Like I said before I am extremely serious about this so you can throw any older songs I did prior to this out the window. That shit was poorly written and produced. Keep your eyes and ears open and be prepared to witness the growth of an artist before your very eyes!!

I saw a man sitting alone today...



Hey guys, I know it's a damn shame that it's been a whole week since I've written anything but, fortunately or unfortunately however you wanna look at it, nothing much has been goin on. Yes, Brooke did come for her visit and it was fantastic. In fact, I'm still in a sort of "depressed mood" since she left so we're just not gonna talk about it. Let's just say I enjoyed having her here. I did however, notice something this evening while I was eating dinner at Cracker Barrel with my family that made me think.

Of course, as on any other Wednesday evening the restaurant was far from crowded. We were nearing the end of our meal and the time where conversation starts to dwindle and blank stares across the room commenced. I looked around at the semi full dining room and noticed different families, lovers and friends enjoying their meals and the company that the person across the table from them provided. A I turned my head in the direction of my proverbial "3 o'clock" direction I noticed an older gentleman sitting by himself at a table for "two". The man wasn't wearing anything too out of the ordinary but there was just something about him that changed my quick glance at him into a stare. The man was alone.

While I know that it is perfectly okay to go out and enjoy a meal by yourself if you so please to, something just struck me oddly about this man. As I glanced at him I noticed that every movement he made was precise and calculated. As if he were used to a routine of sorts. He seemed to be fairly comfortable which lead me to assume that the man was a regular at this eating establishment but his comfort also lead me to believe that he had grown accustomed to being alone. I put myself in his situation. If I were alone at a table waiting for my meal I would be a nervous wreck. I would fidgit, play that stupid game on the tables at every Cracker Barrel or simply mess with my phone. In no way could I ever act so comfortably "alone".

After watching the gentleman sit there with his suspenders and hair laid to the side I began to really notice his "old fashioned" style. The style seen now a days on the "TV Land" station. Wrong or right I then made a huge assumption that would eventually bring the creation of this blog post. I began to feel sorry for this man. As a child I was taught that one of the essential "needs" of a human being is love. Now I know that love doesn't necessarily have to come from a spouse but as much as it pains the immature "young stud" persona in me, I must admit that when I reach that age the love of a spouse is all that will matter to me.

No one wants to be alone. Even a hermit wants companionship of some sorts. Be it a pet or inanimate object (Wilson in the movie Castaway), human beings need love. Seeing this man sitting there alone in his suspenders and gingham shirt made me want to go an have a conversation with him. He seemed as though he would love the company.

I dont really know why seeing this gentleman alone bugged me so much but it did. Who knows? Maybe he was an old widow who longed for someone, ANYONE to show him that he DOES matter in a world where change is ever present as he sits in a restaurant resembling a statue that depicts the "simpler times". Or maybe he was simply having a dinner alone at Cracker Barrel because, he needed a break from his loving bountiful family. I'll never know..but what I DO know is that I gained a better understanding of one's place in this world.

Hmmm..nothing to say



Well, the title kinda explains it all folks. I'm tryna stay consistent with this whole blogging thing but at the same I feel as thought I shouldn't be taking the "Easy way out" by simply putting up youtube videos for you guys. This is where reader interaction really comes into play! You guys feel the need to come back and check up on things so it only makes sense that you guys provide me with some suggestion of what you wanna see! Oh well moving along, what you see pictured above is not your everyday super hero or caped crusader. Actually, she's not a super being at all, it's my adorable (and strange) girlfriend Brooke.

While I could just post pictures of her all day just for fun, there's actually reasoning behind this Brooke sighting. Just a reminder that she will be coming to visit this coming friday and will be staying in town until sunday. Yup that's right so if you wanna see the wonderful woman who keeps this guy sane and motivated here's you FIRST chance. Feel free to suggest something at anytime. Brooke wants to see each and every one of you...seriously :) . I only ask that you give us Saturday morning and afternoon as alone time seeing as we couldn't celebrate the "regular" Valentine's day and we'll instead celebrate then. lol call us corny but we wanna get dinner and have a "date".

Besides the Brooke news there isn't really much else on my mind (can you blame me?). All I can say is there are good things on the horizon. I'm trying my hardest not to count my chickens before they hatch or to "tease" you guys too much but let's just say I have a lot of Modeling/Acting oppurtunites on the horizon and "HeartlessMARC" (no he's not dead!) may be coming back to the music world way sooner than previously expected.

Stay tuned and keep reading.....and gimmie some DAMN FEEDBACK!


Epic "WIN" of the day?

Well instead of the usual FAIL of the day, I stumbled across a video that was full of soo much fail that it's actually a "win".. check it





The stressed blogger is back...



What's good everybody? I'm tryin my hardest NOT to abandon this blog again so I literally have to drag myself to the computer in order to update you guys. First things first, I've had a ton of you guys ask me about it but, I've been blowin you guys off saying things like "wait for the blog post!!". Well here it is, the answer to your question.."WTF happened with the L.A situation?!?"


Well I'm not gonna b.s you guys, so lemme just get it out there. No. I did not get the $1,000. I needed the money by Saturday afternoon and as I sat on my couch with $500 in my hand I came to the conclusion that it just wasn't meant to be. Of course I was in denial for a while and almost went to "drastic" measures to get the money. In the end though, I just realized that 7 days was not enough time to come up with that kinda money.

Don't fret little ones there is great news that followed the sad epiphany previously mentioned however, at this current time I am in no position to share the news with you. Just know this..when one door closes on you, remember there is always the window! lol stay tuned guys!!


FAIL of the day

Yea so I'm gonna follow up that HOT Chris Brown mixtape with this "musical" entry...smh



Hot New Music!! Chris Breezy







Hot new mixtape from Chris Brown and DJ Drama Download below!!

Today is one of those days...



It seems that every single thing I tried to accomplish today was a failure. I can't remember a day in recent history where every single thing I've done has blown up in my face. and it's not even 3 yet!! oh well, make sure guys download the MGK "100 Words and Running" mixtape in the post below.

That was probably the only thing that worked out today. Dope music I can ride to, thas wassup. Anyways my efforts to get $1,000 by saturday is taking a major hit. I'm tryna stay focused cuz I want this so bad. Regardless if I obtain it or not at least I tried. It wont be the end of the world just a disappointment. hmmmm I hope the Cavs at least win tonite..

Good Music!!


The boy Machine Gun Kelly, my favorite Cleveland rapper (Sorry Chip and Cudi), just dropped his brand new "100 Words and Running" mixtape. This shit is fire trust me.



Download Link BELOW!!

Download: here

Stepping up in the clutch Part 2


So I promised you guys some videos and what not so here ya go.
First off the official website of the IPAC event is here. Since the IPAC event is a little more exclusive in the amount of people they accept from agencies and "off the street" there is less video footage available. So I'll post some IMTA videos so you guys can get the idea.




The above movie is just one of the numerous events that all guests of the conventions can participate in. The list of events includes numerous model and talent workshops and seminars along with the many showcases: Sitcoms, Cold Read, Soaps, Singing & Dance, Monologues, TV Commercials, Commercial and Fashion Print, Trendy Runway, High Fashion Runway and Swimwear Runway.

You guys remember more physical goals for summer? Well needless to say my deadline has been pushed forward. If I attend this conference there is NO way im gonna be a laughing stock in the swimwear competition. I'm on the right path as far as bulking up now I just need to start chiseling.





After watching the video you should notice that A. Most of these dudes really arent too built to be honest. and B. The swimwear is more like underwear. I'm definitely not saying I'm the best lookin dude in the world in a bathing suit but look at this dude at 3:17.. LMFAO sorry homie even the girls recording the video say "ewww".

Well like I said before I'm currently tryna get this dough together so I can make this trip! (im gonna sell my xbox and games =[ sadface... ) Gotta do what I gotta do. Thanks for readin talk to you guys soon

Stepping up in the clutch Part 1


Hey guys long time no see i know, i know. Well I promise you I have a "juicy" blog post for you guys so read on! As you may remember (or you can just scroll down) last time I wrote on here I told you guys that I was preparing for a big audition at my agency. Well I was a little confused on the details of said audition and unintentionally gave you guys some false information. I told you guys that I would be auditioning at my agency in front of a few agents from different places including L.A. Well that wasn't quite true. Instead I came to find out I was auditioning in front of the three talent evaluators of my agency for a chance to be selected to represent our agency IN L.A for a huge convention and perform in front of thousands of agents from across the globe, literally...see my mistake? lol needless to say I was nervous..


Lemme start at the beginning. My appointment was scheduled for 2pm. this past Sunday (superbowl sunday). So naturally, I spent the entire time from 10-11:30 tryna figure out what I'm gonna wear. Finally I decided on a burgundy top, black pants, brown shoes and a tie that had all three colors. Trust me it looked alot better than it sounds. I arrive at the office and pull into my space next to a car with a 22ish year old guy in it smoking, I'm assuming he's waiting for his girlfriend to finish her audition but who cares. Naturally tho, I tend to blast music when I'm nervous or upset so when I pulled in I just so happened to be blasting "Sexy Bitch".

Coming off as a arrogant douchebag: check.

I walk inside to a packed reception room. It looked like one of those Texas beauty pageants. There were kids with dresses and heels all over. Well maybe only 6 but it felt like more. Needless to say between the big hair and high heels it was a pedophiles trip to "heaven" but, I digress. I also noticed that there were about 6 or 7 hopefuls that were closer to my age sitting in their chairs staring in to space. "Hey Marc!!" yells Matthew, the gay guy who works in the office but, is a BEAST with makeup and styling, trust me. This guy has styled numerous celebs, he knows his shit. "You look good today!" I smile, gay guy or woman if someone tells me I look good I'll take it. I check in with Diana and sit down next to a 12 year old and her father. You know how when you're at a restaurant or anywhere in public and no matter how hard you try NOT to listen you still hear their pointless conversation? Well that happened. This little girl was a cocky little brat too. Hope it works for her.

For the 20 minutes I sat there waiting I think I read the same poster 10 times and I think looked at my phone 15 times without actually texting anyone. We were all waiting for the noon auditions to end so we could go to the audition room. My agency was holding these auditions for their students and for people "off the street" who thought they had what it takes. The auditions were held all weekend long so I knew since it was sunday the judges would be tired of the bullshit...great. Finally Diana gets up and tells us to follow her down the hallway to the audition room. This room is rather big and the first thing you notice is the runway. Oh, how I hate that thing. I've tripped and stumbled on that thing in class more times than I can count. I stared it down as we walked in, I guess it was my way of trying to "punk" an inanimate object.

Diana told us to all have a seat and the judges would be in shortly. She put on a DVD and told us to watch it as she left the room. At THIS moment I finally realized what was going on. We watched a video on an event called the IMTA. International Model and Talent Association. This event is held every year in either New York or L.A. it's a huge event that hosts contestants and talent seekers from all over the globe. Don't believe me? check it out. This event is an outstanding way to come in contact with the industry's who's who and to immediately launch you career. Some successful participants? Ashton Kutcher, Jessica Biel, Katie Holmes, Sean William Scott..just to name a few. Along with the IMTA we also learned about the IPAC. International Performing Arts Conference. Which is very similar to the IMTA except it is smaller scaled and more "Exclusive". This is what we were auditioning for. The IPAC event being held in L.A this coming June. This little "News Flash" smacked me across the face. I was extremely nervous now.

After the video the judges walk in and sit down at the table which is positioned at the end of the runway. There are three judges and they consist of Matthew (the stylist/ talent booker), Anthony (Talent booker) and Susan (The director of Stone Modeling). It had a real "American Idol" feel to it. We go up there do a runway walk, read a commercial script, answer some questions and then the judges eventually tell us if we're going to Hollywood or not. *gulp
Susan starts off by welcoming all of us for coming (some of us for coming for a second or third year to try out, ouch) and tells us what the judges want to see. She wishes us all good luck and calls up the first person.

The first one to be called just so happened to be the cocky 12 year old I sat next to. she walks to the stage and Matthew starts the music. "Candyman" by Christina Aguilera, lol. The little girl almost runs through her walk and show little to no technique...atta girl pumpkin, you show those judges! sarcasm. When she is finished she reads a Goldfish crackers script repeatedly stumbling over the words Pepperidge Farm. It is at THIS moment when I see her on stage with her arm visibly shaking, that I manage to swallow my nerves and actually become "excited" and ready to show the judges my stuff. The judges are nice to her and bid her on her way. After our auditions we are supposed to schedule a follow-up meeting within 48 hrs. This follow-up is a one on one in which the judges tell us how they really feel. How delightful.

Next one of those "theater" type kids gets called on. She says she's 15 but she looks way too young for the bright red lipstick she's wearing. Her walk is "okay". She had poor technique but she did walk with attitude. Always a plus. She did a good job reading her M&M's script and then sang a musical number. It wasn't half bad either.

Next I'm called upon. Well that was a shocker. Seeing as I was one of the last ones to arrive, I didnt expect to be called so soon. Reguardless, I was ready to kill this shit. I walk to the stage and take a deep breath and wait for "Cadyman" to start playing. I walk across the stage smoothly with a smile and nail those damned pivots that cost me that Bridal show. I walk down the runway with attitude and get to the end of it flashing my pearly (off-colored) whites. *Everyone claps*
That was a nice surprise. I then read a Red Bull script with ease surprisingly without stumbling or ignoring any punctuation. Now I'm asked questions.

Marc do you sing or dance? I sing in the shower and I dance at clubs. -the judges laugh
Do you have abs? Not all 6 of them. - they laugh again and appreciate the honesty
Are you nervous? Yes ma'am.
Well you aren't showing it.. Well honestly, I feel that I need to show confidence in myself no matter how nervous I am. Since I figure that if I can't show you guys that I'm confident in myself then, there's no way I should expect you to be confident in me to represent us in L.A. - they liked that answer

I thank them for there time and head back to the office to make my follow up appointment with Diana. Monday (the next day) at 4, see you then.

I come back Monday anxious to hear the final verdict. A woman named Victoria greets me and takes me into her office. She closes the door and sits down. I'm sitting here waiting for the follow up interview to begin and while I'm thinking of answers to potential question in my head, she interrupts my thought process by saying "They loved you, they want you to go". I had to do a quick double take and I'm sure I looked at her funny. She finally smiles like a big secret has been let out and she says "Congratulations!". I'm not used to good news so quite frankly, I dont know how to react. I just say "That's great". Long story short we sit there and she tells me how I will need to stop taking the classes I currently am and move to a specified class that will prepare me and the 10 other selected representatives for our trip to the conference.

Good news right I'm going to L.A to potentially get discovered!!!!!!

not so fast..

This won't be free. Like everything in life it comes at a price and the biggest obstacle here is the fact that I need to somehow muster up $1,000 by Saturday. are you kidding me?! Talk about short notice. This is a big step towards my dream though and my future. I'm gonna have to make some sacrifice but there's no way I'm gonna let this opportunity pass me up..

Well I've been sitting here typing for hours now and I need to get movin. I'll be back later tonite to give you guys more details and videos in part 2




Hey Strangers :)


Well well well, look who decided to show up! Yea I know I havent been on here in a while but, I'm gonna try to reverse that trend and get back into it.Hmm so I guess I should update you guys on a few things. First thing's first, as you guys may or may not remember I put up a blog post not too long ago about my girlfriend Brooke coming to Cleveland this weekend and you guys getting a chance to meet her. Well forget I said that. Unfortunately a family issue came and she needs to be home this weekend so that means no visit from my baby :( . On a bright note tho, she will be coming to visit the weekend of the 19th. 2 weekends from now. That's good for the fact that I get to figure out more fun ish for us to get into lol.

Hmmm what else? Oh yea, it seems that this Sunday my agency is having a big showcase for some talent agents and I'm scheduled to perform a monologue, commercial script and runway walk. How exciting... This is a pretty big deal for me because, not only is it a chance for myself to be scheduled for work but, it is also a chance for me to show my agency how much I've learned so far in class and that I;m a capable and dependable client. So I'll keep you posted as far as what happens with that!

Thanks, but...no thanks


A lesson learned. So, it's been quite some time now and I am 99% sure that I won't be getting a call back for the bridal show. Three women from my agency went to the audition and were recently notified that they weren't selected to be in the show. The funny thing about it though, is the actual reason why they weren't selected. Check this, the head of the bridal show said they were "too skinny"..Lol I didn't even know "too skinny" existed in the fashion world. There were no other guys from my agency that went to the audition but, I'm just gonna go out on a limb and assume I haven't been selected (all because of those damn pivots!!!). Oh well, like I said before, it's a learning experience regardless. But you better be damn sure I'm workin my butt off to get my ish together! Even thought I'm not really interested in the runway part of the industry or even "fashion" in general (I'm more interested in the acting portion of my classes, that I'll be starting in a couple weeks), I still want to do my best and I never wanna close any doors to opportunity.

Oh well, back to the drawing board. Practice makes perfect I assume

Some good news though..


Yes, you guy's first chance to kick it and get dumb drunk with me and Brooke will be the first weekend in February!! I told you it would be soon. Brooke will be coming here on Friday the 5th and leaving Sunday the 7th. So that's a Friday and Saturday's worth of time to get dumb and have fun :) . She is very excited to meet you guys and has heard good things (or at least funny shit) about all of you so make sure to make some free time to say "hey".

NO,NO please...Not the face!!

Well most of you heard by now and if you didn't go ask somebody else. I'm not gonna dwell on the topic simply due to it's stupidity but, yes I did get punched in the face a few times thursday night and yes, it was by a girl..i think. Lol no seriously all jokes aside, I just wanna say to any ladies thinking about hitting me in the near future. I can take a punch from guys, soooo you're probably not gonna hurt me too much by punching me yourselves and I realize that so I'm not making a big deal about the punches themselves. But, the fact remains that i am now trying to gain work in an industry where my face is my "contract" so to speak. I need this thing and I need it not to have cuts all over it.

If you wanna "hurt" me punch me in the stomach or something..Better yet, go get your boyfriend so I can whoop HIS ass since I'm not allowed to hit you. Point is, don't touch my face please

Industry Woes


Hey guys how you been? Hopefully you've been doing a little better than I have in fact, I can almost bet you have lol. Well the last time I wrote to you guys I was nervous about my audition that i had that night for the Bridal show showcase. I promised that I'd update you guys on how it went so here goes..

Obstacle #1 was actually finding the place. I knew the boutique was in the Eton plaza (the one in woodmere with Trader Joe's in it) but it took me ten minutes of driving around the parking lot before I realized that the place was actually inside the tiny "mall". ughh. So I walk in the building with my freshly shaven face (which I'm actually starting to like), dark blue jeans, black v-neck, black dress shoes. pea coat and scarf. I walk down the hallway with my head swinging back and forth from left to right looking for this audition site all the while practicing my posture. Needless to say I was nervous and it showed.

After walking for what seemed like forever I noticed a line of about 14 of the tallest women (besides volleyball players) that I've ever seen. This had to be the place. Before I go any further let me throw this in here

Disclaimer:

*Note, the world is full of beautiful women and men(no homo). Me saying that a girl is PHYSICALLY beautiful does not discredit my love for Brooke at all. I may be biased and think that she is an "angel" but im not ignorant. Other people are beautiful also.*

With that out of the way..

As I drew closer to the crowd not only did i notice that the young women were tall ( about 5'11" barefoot + wearing 4 in heels) but, I noticed that they were quite possibly the most beautiful girls/women I've ever seen in Ohio. If I wasnt nervous before I definitely was now. I got in line behind them and smiled at some of the younger girl's mothers who must have sensed I was nervous and in efforts to calm me down smiled back and said "you look very nice". Did it work? FUCK NO but, it stopped my shaking lol. After standing in line for about 40 sec. I realized that all the male models were actually sitting at tables while the women were in line to the boutique. So I got outta line and quickly sat down at a table with friendly lookin dude who if I had known was a "talker" I would have reconsidered my seating choice.

As I'm sitting there watching the girls go in the boutique one at a time, I did what any other insecure male would at that moment. I began to size up my competition. I looked around at the different guys who to be honest, didnt really have much that was special looking about them. To their credit however all of them looked as though they had skin like a baby's behind, smooth and blemish free. In this industry that is always a big plus. Out of the 10 total guys there I will have to admit probably 3 of them had striking facial features that would help them stand out from a crowd their downfall however, was the fact that they were "pretty boys". When we all finally stood up I could tell that most of these guys looked like they never did anything physical in their lives besides pick up a styling brush in other words, there were alot of "frail" looking guys. I'm not a "big" guy by any means but my v-neck was makin me look like Ronnie next to these fools. Advantage Marc right? Let's see..

Meanwhile as the guys sat, the women went in, put on dresses and strutted. Half of these "beautiful" women lost their beautiful status in MY book once they took off their jackets. Talk about skinny! Ribcages and shoulders galore. I couldn't help but feel sorry for these girls who see beauty in being thin just because Hollywood says so. That sight was actually quite saddening and made me forget my nerves for a moment. That is until a short brunette woman abruptly interrupted my daydreaming and appeared in front of me asking for my "Name and Agency?". Time to get started.

The woman apologized to the guys for our long wait and in an effort to expedite things asked all the men to line up and take turns walking in the hallway yes, in plain sight of the women's audition line, waiting parents and mall goers. How exciting. Even though I was one of the last to arrive, with the way we lined up I was second in line to walk. The lady asked us to walk down the hallway, pivot, walk back and repeat. So walk down and back twice. The guy ahead of me walked down came back only once and before he could go down again she said "Thank you Thomas, that's enough". Ouch. Now my turn. I made sure my head was back and I was "tall" and began my long walk. I stopped. I posed. I pivoted. I came back. I posed and before I could begin my second trip down the hallway i heard the woman say "honey?". In my head I thought dammit!! well this is it, I'm gonna get the boot a la Thomas. I replied "Yes ma'am?" waiting for the bad news. To my surprise all she said was "Be sure to smile this time. You have a nice smile can you please show us?". *whew. So I embark on another trip down the hallway and back probably over doing the smile (ughhh) and when I get back I'm expecting to hear "Okay Marc, thank you. Have a nice day" instead she asks me to do my walk one more time but, only halfway down the hallway this time. She said she wants to see "How you're pivoting, one more time".

This was good and bad I realized, Good for that fact that she is so interested in me that she actually wants me to walk 2 and 1/2 times instead of 1 but, this request was bad for the fact that I knew my pivot was questionable. I did my walk and tried sooo hard to pivot smoothly. I walked back towards her tall, confident and with a smile. For the first time in the entire day I was confident. I "knew" that I was gonna be in that show. I "knew" that I was the best model there. I was just standing there waiting for HER to tell me that. She instead told me this, "Thank you Marc, I've seen enough".

......

Shock, sadness, confusion. It all hit me at once. I just smiled, thanked her, grabbed my jacket and left. Whether or not I'm going to get a call back from them, who knows? All I know is that I can't swell on it if I don't. I am still in classes and am still learning. That was a learning experience and it was far from the "end of the road". All in all I'm staying optimistic but, somewhat doubtful of getting a call back. If I do I'll be sure to tell you guys though. Oh well, it was an experience and I'll grow from it. I may not gain work from the audition but, I did gain a bunch of confidence that's for sure! :)


Lemme introduce you to..

My wonderful Girlfriend Brooke =]


YES, this post is gonna be all about her so if you're not in the mood to hear about a beautiful woman who has opened my mind and heart to a thing called love and happiness then come back and read the blog tomorrow haters.

The point of this post isn't to brag (though I'm sure I will a little bit =] ), it's to inform you about a very important part of my life which, was previously somewhat in obscurity. Alot of you guys know I have a girlfriend but you don't really "know" much about her so if you wanna be lifted from your pit of ignorance read on..

First and foremost, NO I have not been hiding her or anything. The reason many of you have not met her yet is due to the fact that she lives in Baltimore, Maryland. That's right, a long distance relationship. OHHHH NOOO!! Those things never work! You're gonna be single in a month tops!! LOL thanks haters, I already know what you're thinking so I just went ahead and typed it for you. I'm not even gonna address this issue to be frank. What it eventually amounts to is an argument on faith between a Christian and an Atheist. Nobody "wins", you just wait and see. So while you say long distance never works I say "Love always finds a way". But I digress, back to Brooke..


She a really fun person as you can tell^^ lol and I find that extremely underrated in relationships now-a-days. You wanna always make sure you are friends with someone before you get together. if you two can't just hangout or do fun things and laugh together, do you really think "oh I think she's so sexy!!" is really gonna make that relationship last or even be meaningful? Brooke is hands down the nicest person I know ( and I know some nice people!). I guess it's kinda necessary though since I'm an asshole together we balance out lol.

She is a receptionist by day and a very talented singer/songwriter/musician by night. I can dig it too. You guys already know I love music so it was just icing on the cake, not to mention she actually watches football and UFC *fist pump* lmao. Don't just take my word for it take a listen:

Performing her Original song "Alot to Hide"


She is a driving force in my life and honestly couldn't have come to me at a better time than when she did. I was on a downward slope during the second half of 2009 but she helped me realize a lot of things and helped me "mature" so I thank her and honestly look up to her if that makes sense. Like I said before she is a real cool person and a kind and understanding one. Believe me there are times where I thought she was really gonna flip on me but she simply asks "Is everything okay baby?". Idk why I'm the lucky bastard she fell for but I am NOT complaining lol. Ima just assume I actually lucked out in life for once.


So even though I could just go on forever praising her and making this post the longest one in history, I'm not. What I will do is encourage you guys to find out how great she is for yourselves. Like I said before yes, we do live 6 hours apart but, we do visit each other from time to time and I can assure you she will be here in Cleveland sometime very soon. When she is here you will have plenty of time to hangout with us and get drunk lol but, in the meantime if you wanna talk to her go ahead and add her on facebook, she's extremely friendly and wouldn't mind at all. Just click on the name of the girl it says im in a relationship with and "add as friend" for all you dummies out there haha. Don't be creeps please...I'd hate to have to "handle" somebody cuz they were talkin slick to her.

When I officially know when she'll be coming for a visit I'll let you guys know. Until then go say "hi" don't be shy!! =]

Walk it Out


Well today is the day. My first runway show audition. If I sat here and typed to you guys about how I'm so confident and ready to blow the boutique away I'd be lying to you guys! I'm nervous as can be. I haven't eaten yet today( diet fail) because, in between blog posts I've been practicing my posture, stance and pivot. Don't get me wrong I do have some confidence in myself but, this is a totatlly different world for me. Besides my 3 weeks of training (In a 13-week program) I don't really know anything about fashion besides wearing outfits that match lol.

Oh well, I guess crying about things never really makes the situation better. Besides, I need to look at this as a valuable learning experience regardless of if I am accepted for the showcase or not. I still have plenty of opportunities in the future and I am very confident in that. If I go out there and do what I was taught I'm sure I'll do fine. Besides, my agency wouldn't have selected me to go audition if they didn't think I'd do a good job right?

I'll let you guys know how it goes later

Food for Thought



I noticed that I haven't posted a thoughtful post in a little while now so when this topic came to me in the shower I knew I had to "discuss" it with you guys. I know you guys don't really "respond" to my posts but just the idea of putting them out there gives me the feeling of having a conversation of sorts with you guys. Like I said a loooong time ago, what I say here is only MY opinion. Take it to heart or take it with a grain of salt I couldn't care less I just want you to think about it, that's all. So now that everyone has been reminded of the "MARC in full effect" disclaimer lemme get onto the topic.

The topic really boils down to the simple question:

"Why do we pity certain people?" In other words why do we feel that certain people are lacking a "quality" life simply because, their's is different from ours?

Now that may be a little bit confusing like I said, I thought of this in the shower lol but, I'll give an example and hopefully this will all make a little more sense.

The following discussion has to do with the young lady pictured at the beginning of this post. As you may have noted she was born with Down Syndrome and for the purpose of this topic she will be the "face" so to speak, of Mental Retardation. Now Mentally Challenged people are nothing to laugh at and are in fact, a very sore subject to even speak upon when dealing with some people. In my post I will state an idea or opinion and in doing so I will "tip-toe around eggshells" to make sure not to offend anyone reading. Now back to the topic..

Why do people say that they pity or feel sorry for the mentally handicapped?

I can see the obvious reasons such as their lack of total self-sufficiency and limited grasp on various concepts including "normal" (note the quotation marks) public etiquette BUT, I am going to change this up a little bit and offer the idea that in fact the mentally challenged should pity US. If you look at things like I do personally, meaning with a somewhat Christian view on things you know that one thing that separates children from adults is innocence. By innocence I mean the lack of accountability for one's wrong-doings due to ignorance. Children aren't born with hate, infidelity, lust or malicious intent. All of those things are developed and learned through life experience.

I offer the idea that all of us, you, me, your parents are in some way corrupt. That's just a fact of life. Another fact of life is that we all have concerns and a "standard" of living that we wish to achieve. We have pity for the mentally challenged because, we feel as though they are being "cheated" of a "normal" life. This "normal" life however, is something that we deemed as normal ourselves thus, making it lose merit. Who are we to say what is "normal" or not? Who are we to determine what is "fortunate" or not? Us saying that other human beings have an inadequate means of living makes no sense.

I feel as though the mentally handicapped should pity ME. Being the "normal" person I am, I have experienced things that a mentally handicapped person will never have to deal with. Everyday I am met with choices, deception and temptation. Everyone is. I know the difference from right and wrong so to speak, and I have no "challenges" to keep me from making the correct choices. The only thing that makes me or anyone else give in to hate, deception or lust is poor character. I'm not saying that the mentally challenged live "care-free" lives BUT what I am saying is that they still obtain that fabric of our lives that we all deep down, wish we still possessed; A sense of innocence in a world of corruption.

Like I stated earlier that was an extremely confusing post and I wish I could relay my thoughts a little better to you guys but I tried. All in all I hope that you took something from that and I hope no one was offended. I may touch back on this subject at a later time when I'm able to better transfer my ideas to words.

What I've Been up to.....

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Alright guys I have a confession (no im not gay), for the past couple of weeks I have been taking classes in a modeling/acting program with the Stone Modeling Agency. Now if you were to ask me I wouldn't be the one to tell you that I think I'm attractive but hey, it's not up to me. Anyway I've only attended three classes thus far and I've already learned how to walk down a runway AND pivot lol, buff my nails, pose and apply my own makeup (foundation and powder)..Now before you laugh at the make-up part hear me out...It isn't "makeup" in the sense of feminine looking stuff or circus clown stuff..simply feature enhancement makeup so to speak.

Let's face facts, 98% of people you see that are paid to be on television are wearing makeup..even the GUYS. It jus "smooths" you out and makes you more camera friendly. But anyway, enough about makeup lol...Along with the lessons I've learned I've also been selected for an audition

IN ONLY MY THIRD WEEK OF CLASSES

The event is a bridal show aka a runway display of tuxedos and dresses. As you may have guessed I would be required to walk down the runway in a tux (not a dress) and try not to fall of stage :(.. haha anyway I just wanted to give you gives a little insight as to what I've been up to lately.. I'll update you more on these "vanity affairs" <-- (see what I did there) as it unfolds

Excitement and Hardwork..



Hey guys what's goin? I know, I know..Long time no talk, well I'm here now and ready to fight procrastination and get back on this thing. So alot has happened since my last post but one thing in particular has been on my mind for the past few days. One of my JCU friends Jay (The Main Attraction lol) Campara, will been having a week-long yes, WEEK-LONG birthday celebration in his home state of Florida this coming August. After hearing the details on it my mind immediately went into "kid on christmas eve" mode and I can't stop thinking about it and wishing the trip was tomorrow!!

BUT

Along with my excitement came the realization that I have alotta things to do in order to make sure I'm ready when August actually does roll around. While it seems like torture to have to wait 7 months for this vacation, it is also a very good thing that I have this trip on my mind so well in advance due to the fact that my prep list will take some time to complete. First thing's first, MONEY.. Since I do not plan to hitchhike there or die from a lack of shelter and/or starvation ima need to start saving up some funds! I know how lazy I can be with certain things but this is a MUST. I'm guessing I'll need to store away atleast 1,500 (excluding travel fare) for this trip... which will be no easy" task.

Since money is my main concern at this point (and rightfully so) I guess my next concern could be listed as problem 1A. Anybody who can put 2 and 2 together realizes that with summer and warm weather comes beaches, and lots of time spent at them. Now I am in no way what-so-ever embarassed to get into swimwear. Trust me, I take care of myself BUT..I want to make sure I've progressed nicely in my "new year's resolution" by then. I'll use this halfway mark of the calender as a "midterm test" so to speak, in my year long endeavor. Besides I'm a HAPPILY taken guy with a wonderful girlfriend who will be joining me on this trip so I'm not gonna be there tryna impress any broads..I'm doing this myself and MY goals...and I'm sure Brooke wouldn't mind me gettin muscle anyway haha


So all in all, I'm excited but, I see a somewhat long road of work ahead before me and my people's are fist pumpin all night long..


Some Crazy Shit....watch all the way through!!

UGHHHHHHHHH


Sorry for the lack of posts today guys, today's just been one of those days. I'm strugglin with this new weight gain diet already! Stuffing your face with a FULL meal every 2 hours is no joke, trust me. I promise I'll be back to my normal "bloggin" self tmrw. I just need a creativity break for the time being. Hope all is well in YOUR lives. Ima go ahead and kick back with this protein shake and peanut butter sandwich (yuck) and wait for Jersey Shore to come on lol.

Good night =]

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NEW YEAR - NEW ME?



It's a new year which means time for a fresh start. Every year people make resolutions to better themselves in some way or another with many of them failing or giving up on their goals by March. I am no exception to this rule and this year I am more determined than ever to accomplish my goal! (lol I say that every year). So what is my resolution? I want to stop swearing and become a much better friend to everyone in my life. I want to treat everyone with love and respect and end my negative attitudes..


FUCK THAT!!!


hahahhahaha, fooled you guys didn't I? "I want to stop swearing and become a much better friend to everyone in my life" <-- how dumb and unrealistic does that sound? I've been a smart-ass all my life and I'm not stopping now! Well now that I got that lil joke outta my system here's my actual new year's resolution/ goal.

By year's end I would like to weigh 190 lbs. Yes, you read that correctly my goal is to successfully complete a weight GAIN diet. I've had so many people say to me "Marc WTF is a weight GAIN diet? Just eat more...why don't you gain weight?!"...Ahhh I love my astute friends. Anyway weight gain is not as simple as "eat more". It's what you eat, how you eat, when you eat and how often along side with steady exercise. My goal is to become 190 and maintain a muscular build, not to just add fat lol.

Why would someone need a weight gain diet?

Some people have a hard time naturally putting on weight due to many factors. Two very important factors are metabolism and body type.

What is metabolism and body type, and how can you combat them?


Simply put, a person's metabolism determines how fast they burn calories, which in turn determines how easily they gain weight or lose it. I personally have a high metabolism meaning I burn calories at a rapid rate meaning I need to consume even MORE calories (food/nutrients) to compensate for those burned thus, allowing for weight gain.

As far as body types go there are three different categories and for each different approaches should be taken in order to achieve that "dream" look.

ENDOMORPH:

An Endomorph's biggest concern should be the losing of fat and adopting a lifestyle that keeps it off. Strength training should be done to get a better muscle to fat ratio and therefore improve metabolism. Use moderate weights at a fast training pace (very little rest between sets and exercises). You should lower your calorie intake (but not try to starve yourself) and should eat frequent but small meals. Sugars, sweets and junk food should be eliminated from your diet. Engage daily in some activity like brisk walking, biking, etc., and try to increase the amount of time you spend each week.

MESOMORPH:

A Mesomorph has a naturally fit body but to maintain it or improve it they should exercise and diet corretly for their type. Strength training can be done more often and for longer sessions then would be good for an Ectomorph, but you must still be carefull not to overdo it. You should train with moderate to heavy weighs and at a moderate pace, not resting too long between sets. You will find you gain muscle quite easy (some women and even men might not want to get too bulky, but this won't happen suddenly. When you are happy with your muscle size simply train to maintain it). Stick to a good healthy diet to keep you lean and muscular, and watch for any slow creeping fat gains. Engage in and enjoy aerobic activities, sports, etc. but do not overdo.


ECTOMORPH:

Ectomorphs should concentrate on gaining weight in the form of good lean muscle tissue (some women that are too thin may also want to put on a little fat to look more feminine). Weight training should be done but not too often or for too long each session. Weight should be fairly heavy and workout pace slower (longer rest periods between sets). Diet should be high in calories (good quality food not junk) and you should eat more then you're used to and often. Aerobic and other activities (sports, dancing, etc.) should be kept to a minimum, at least until you are happy with your weight and looks.

All information above courtesy of http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/becker3.htm


From the given description above me myself would be an ectomorph thus, comes me need to consume a large amount of (healthy) calories along with intense workouts.

Who is a famous ectomorph to go through such a transformation?

Well I'm glad you asked. One very famous ectomorph to follow a rigorous weight gain diet and workout plan is none other than the American Woman's favorite Warewolf Taylor Lautner.
Check it out:

He went from



To



Now as much as it pained me to search for pictures of this guy being the heterosexual man I am, it was to prove a point. It CAN be done with hard work and dedication. I'll just end this post with a little quotation from Taylor himself on the subject

"I had to eat every two hours.Seriously, I’d wake up and my trainer would say, “You need to have six egg whites, and bacon and toast and…” It became a lot, so that was the hardest part. "

Song of the Day

I can never stay mad whenever I listen to this song. It honestly relaxes me and
erases my problems




LOVE, PAIN and the balance of the universe


It seems that every action has an equal and opposite reaction. It's a law of science, so why wouldn't it be a law of life in general. Whenever there is happiness there always seems to be sorrow not too far away. Whenever there is a sense of pride there's always a sense of disgust. When there is LOVE, there is PAIN. Everything works in a cycle and everything needs "balance". When there is new life in this world there is always death. Everything is apart of "give and take" in the grand scheme of things.

No, I'm not trippin and no I'm not high right now, I'm seriously trying to bring something to light that has been bugging me for a little while now. I've always had some belief in the existence of this "law" of life but, it hasn't been until recently that I've finally been able to fully grasp the concept. There are a couple of instances that I've come across in the past few days that have fully supported this theory.

Example 1:

A friend of mine recently ended his relationship with his girlfriend and cited reasons to me as to why he did it. Some of the reasons made sense to me and others didn't, anyway I'm not IN their relationship so I can't really form an opinion thus, have to take his word for it, alas I digress. After ending this relationship my friend stated to me that he isn't interested in getting in another one for a little while for the fact that he wants to focus on his own personal progress in life and well being, a notion that I can really respect. So everything is cool right?

Enter: LOVE

Now my friend who just said he wanted to remain single starts to hang out with a female friend of his more often, and though he denies it I can look in his eye and tell there is "love" there. I'm no expert and I'm no relationship specialist (farrrrrr from it) but, I understand emotion and feelings and can tell if someone is in love.

Enter: PAIN

Naturally as my friend starts to pull closer to his new "friend" his ex- girlfriend feels what anyone else would in that given situation; pain. Pain is the great equalizer here. For every smile there is a frown and for every giggle there's a tear. The world can seem so complex at times but, when you really look at it, everything is so simple. The world never changes and human nature doesn't either. Everything repeats itself eventually thus, the circle of life ("life" being not just birth and death) takes place.


Example 2:

This example happened just yesterday and involves myself. This one hit me hard but I knew I could only avoid it for so long. As many of you may or may not know I had a girlfriend for almost 2 years starting after my senior year in high school whom I loved very much. She was my first real girlfriend (don't laugh) and we shared many memories that cant ever be duplicated or replaced. We ended up breaking up before Christmas 2008. At that time I took my "fuck love it leads to heartbreak" stance and swore to remain single for the rest of my life due to "women not being necessary for anything except sex" ( I had a very negative attitude mind you). Since breaking up with my ex we remained off and on friends. Sometimes we'd talk and hangout alot and sometimes we wouldn't but the whole time there always seemed to be "loose strings" and feelings for each other left in the air.

Enter: LOVE

I was not a fan. I hated the word, I hated the idea. Love was something that brought false hope and Pain. I wanted to avoid it at all costs. When me and my friends went out places, when I went to the mall even when I went to the grocery store I walked around with my heart "closed". wasn't interested. Funny thing about Love though is that it doesn't care if you're "ready" it comes around when it's "ready". I met my soon to be girlfriend in June of 2009. I denied liking her for months. I told myself it wasn't possible she's just "some chick". It didn't work.

Everyday from then on when I saw my ex's face I knew of the storm brewing inside. We'd hang out and she'd say things like "If you ever fall someone, please tell me. I can handle it" but, I knew she couldn't "handle it". How could you expect someone who loved you more than anyone to "handle" you falling for someone else? So I kept it to myself. I had to.. Recently my new girlfriend and I made our relationship official. My heart defeated my head.


Enter: PAIN

Yesterday I knew I had to do something. I had just spent New Year's with my girlfriend and I needed to put things to rest. My ex texted asking to why I hadn't spoken to her in a few days, she asked me if I had been spending time with someone else. I had to tell her now. The Painful conversation lasted 3 hours and words were muffled through her sobbing and crying. I felt like shit. But how could I? We had been broken up for over a year! I broke up with her! How could I feel guilty?

Pain is Love, Joy is Sorrow and Pride is Disgust. Everything has balance and nothing is avoidable. Everything happens for a reason and not everything makes sense. Love is ineffable so any explanation would be inadequate.

That whole post may have just been a load of jibberish and I may have just wasted 2 hours of my life trying to collect my thoughts and compose that. If so, then so be it. I will touch back on this subject at a later date though. This concept intrigues me.

Where's HeartlessMARC?


I've had alotta people ask me lately "what happened to HeartlessMARC?, you still rappin?". The short answer to that question is nothing happened to him and yes, I am still doing music. The reason for this recent hiatus is entirely due to funds and timing. I haven't learned much in my 20 years on this earth but, one thing I did learn is that it takes money to make money. In other words if I want the flashy life and expensive lifestyle along with the hard work required, there is also a financial commitment that I will have to put forth. So with me not exactly having great cashflow, I naturally will have to "wait my time" and it's coming, believe that.

Nothing in life that comes easy is worth having. If you don't have to work for it, how can you ever really appreciate it? It's the year 2010 now and with every new year comes new hope. I'm simply going to continue writing everything down that comes to mind and when the day comes that I can transition my thoughts from my notebooks to your ears I will make sure to cherish tha moment.


Progress is a slow process and I fully believe that