BREAKING UP IS HARD TO DO

Well the time has come...I am finally growing very sick of this blog. I'm not feeling as though I'm getting the results I wanted when I began updating this so I am officially ending this. So from now forth you no longer have any reason to check here for any news or updates.

"How are we gonna hear more HeartlessMARC music?"

Well thats a good question and that leads me to the second part of this post. I will be starting either a new blog dedicated to my music or a myspace music page. Which ever I choose however, will not be done until after the completion of the "Cleveland2Chicago" mixtape. Don't worry the mixtape should be finished and ready for your ears by thursday...I repeat

THE OFFICIAL CLEVELAND2CHICAGO MIXTAPE WILL BE COMPLETE BY THURSDAY AND READY FOR DOWNLOAD BY FRIDAY AT THE VERY LATEST!!!

So thanx to you all who have been dedicated readers of the blog..more stuff on the way..stay tuned!!

FACEBOOK AND RELATIONSHIPS

I saw this video and I jus had to post it real quick for you guys..I mean if you don't feel like smiling or laughing then don't watch it!! lol

I know alot of you like the " Best I Ever Had" song and I did too (until the radio killed it). Anyways a lot of you voiced your displeasure with the music video which I have to admit was a big dissapointment to me. I mean, even though it was full of slow motion bouncing from "blessed" women, I was looking for more from a video directed by Kanye, artistically speaking..


Fortunately Alphacat agreed and decided to film his hilarious take on the situation hahah enjoy !!

IM EXCITED!!

As many of you know I am a HUGE fan of UFC and MMA in genereal. For those of you unfamiliar with the sport MMA is an acronym for mixed martial arts. "What is that?" Well simply put it is cage fighting. Now, I know just hearing the word "cagefighting" immediately brings thoughts of savagery and barbaric combat to mind but, I assure you it is quite the opposite. I view MMA as an ultimate test in fitness and strategy in the form of physical combat. Fighters in the UFC (Ultimate Fighting Championship) organization are extremely likable and friendly guys outside of the cage. This sport is growing by the minute and I encourage you guys (especially boxing fans) to check it out.

Anyway on to why I'm excited...

The UFC organization has a reality show in which UFC hopefuls live in a house together and compete against one another for contracts in the UFC. This show is very intriguing as it captures individuals in their pursuit of their hopes and dreams while at the same time pushing their bodies to the limit to became that much stronger, that much faster and that much better then their opponent.

Below I have a vid to the promo for this season of "The Ulitimate Fighter" which is the tenth season!!

In the video you may notice a man by the name of Kimbo Slice..Kimbo is a former street brawler who wishes to

receive a contract to the UFC so he can leave his street life behind..

I posted a video of Kimbo in his sreet brawling days below

I wish him and the other competitors luck...and I cant wait!!

The show premieres 9-16

on SPIKE..be sure to tune in

What Have We Come To?

Over the weekend I came across a very disturbing story that really made me sit and think for the majority of this weekend. I read up on a story (from a random forum) regarding a mentally challenged man being beaten to death in a karate dojo. The most sickening part of it all is the fact that other people stodd by as the man was stompped to death by these martial arts instructors. Once the man is beaten severly he is dragged out to a back alley where he later dies. The karate instructor who ordered the beating was never charged in court which I also find extremely disturbing.

If you ever witness a crime being committed especially one that puts the life of another in danger, DO SOMETHING...do not ever assume that " someone else will". Being the coward that you are stnding there you are just as guilty for the crime committed by refusing to do the right thing.

Anyway here is a piece of the description to the youtube video..I am warning you the video is graphic and unsettling. But I will post it for anyone who wishes to view it. If you follow the youtube link you can find the address of the karate instructr in the video description.

The karate instructor Bobby Blythe said this:

'This dummy was in my shopping center while I was on a Bodyguard Job in Washington, DC. This guy was in the Pizza Hut eating pizza off the plates of others and the Pizza Hut Manager ran him out with a pistol. Later the very same day, police officers were called to remove him from a nearby pharmacy after having been caught reaching into customer's purses. A short time after that, he visited a Napa Auto Parts store next to my Karate Dojo and told the management he planned on teaching in that Dojo and that Jesus taught him.

'The Napa guys told him he was confused (their polite way of warning the man against such action), but not wanting to miss a show, they told the man they would close early just to watch and that he must not know the owner, which is nobody to play with.. Needless to say, the police pulled him out of the dumpster behind my Karate Dojo where he was neatly placed. Semper Fi to all my Marine brothers. The karate student in the white is also a Marine Sgt. and a brand new Black Belt. Never get stupid with a Marine, you could get jacked up and have your clock stopped.'"

HERE IS THE VIDEO

YOUTUBE LINK:

MORE?

As many of you know the "Q&A with Marc" deadline was this past Friday. As you you have noticed I did not post the questions and answers. "why?" simply for the fact I wasnt quite satisfied with the turnout of questions so...I will EXTEND the submission period until this coming friday September 4th..Make sure ytou get all ur questions in because this will be the FINAL deadline. While I was not completely satisfied with the amount of questions, some of them were actually interesting and funn..So keep em comin!!

NEW TRACK

Imma Star Freakstyle- HeartlessMARC

Here's a lil somethin from you guys to put on ya ipods..until the Cleveland2Chicago mixtape drops.... Tell me I aint dope....

GIMMIE MORE...pause

I'm getting a bunch of good questions from you guys for the "Q&A With Marc", keep em comin! Remember you can submit questions by any means possible and there is no limit to how many questionjs you ask. Keep up the good work, I must admit some of these questions im getting will provide you guys with shocking answers from myself...Stay tuned, and get those questions in by Friday!!!

A Little Q&A

"Marc do you believe in God?", "How do you feel about gay maraige? Gay people in general?", "Who's the one person from high school you really can't stand?"

All of these questions are valid questions that deserve honest answers. You ever wonder something about me or have anything you wanted me to HONESTLY address? Well here's your chance! From now until next Friday August 28th, you can submit any questions to me about any subject and I will answer them all honestly in a large post. These questions have no restrictions but remember you may not like what you hear from me!! lol

"How do I submit these questions to you Marc?"

I really don't care how you do it. Text, phone, facebook, twitter or in person. If you do not want your name revealed by he question you ask then simply let me know you want to remain anonymous. if not then I will post the question with you name beneath it.

I'm looking forward to some of the questions you guys have so start asking away. You have a week!!

OMG A ZOMBIE!!!

So many of you prolly thought this blog was dead haha but I'm back on the keyboard and I've got a few brand new ideas (that I thought of myself since no body gives me suggestions EVER!!!) that should help make this blog even better. More on that later tho in fact, you can read more on my first new "exciting" idea in the next post.

So what's been up?!?

Well to put things simply I've been enjoying the little bit of time I have left wit some of my homies before school starts back up again. For thoses of you who have been livin in a cave for the past few weeks, I've decided to take a break from school and to dive into the "real world" hence, get a (couple) of jobs and pusue my music...anyway besides that though I've been enjoying life so much so that I guess I forget to update this thing haha...well yea, that's pretty much wats poppin wit me..now go and read my next post for details on "A sit down with Marc"

PRETTY DOPE

Soulja boy in town for the concert at Blossom..Big ups to LeBron in the vid.

FAIL OF THE DAY!!!

I might be a sick fuck since I giggled at this but anywhere here's the fail of the day

ATTITUDE ADJUSTMENT

It's late and im wide awake so I guess I'll do a lil reflective post about something I realized today. Often times i have people say to me "Marc you're mean" or "Why are you making fun of me?"...LOL I'm not gonna lie these responses generally don't hurt my feelings and often times make me laugh since I find the mere thought of myself being a mean person; absurd. Today however while relaxing on the couch I thought about about it and now it makes sense. You see I live in Cleveland in the Lee-Harvard area...If you don't know then leme tell ya, there aint nothin special about my neighborhood. The most exciting thing is finding out how many people are gonna ask if they can pump ur gas for "bus fare (alcohol)"..Anyway since I'm from this area and my parents aren't rich (nowhere close) I naturally went to cleveland public schools through middle school. If you didn't know it's survival of the fittest there and since I wasn't a star athlete or particular good looking, I had to get by with jokes.

Like a schoolwide activity such as lunch, recess or bathroom breaks there were "riding sessions".

RIDING SESSIONS- where students gather to "rank", "roast", "ride" or make fun of each other through often-times hurtful jokes in order to gain a crowds approval.

Riding sessions could take place in the halls, classes, lunchrooms ANYWHERE..they were just a natural part of life. Everyone had to learn to defend themselves cuz you never knew when your time to be ranked on was coming..Riding sessions would contain jokes that often started with "Look at this dude wearin *insert hurtful staement here*" or " I know you not talkin wit yo*insert hurtful statement here*"..Jokes were vicious but they were fun times..I had to hold my own as did everyone else..

Now fast forward to present day..I just realized that I still have that menatality and unfortunately I hold riding sessions on kids who don't stand a chance lol. If a person makes a smart comment at me they are simply ignorant to the fact that I grew up on peole talkin reckless and I can gaurantee in the end it's YOUR feelings that'll be hurt...

REMEMBRANCE

Wats poppin peeps? It is a very hot day today and I'm hopin it would rain!! I'm sittin here feeling like im in the rainforest every part of me feels all sticky..PAUSE anyway today is a big day. Today I am going to a meeting/fundraiser for the Jade foundation which was created in memory of my late friend Alex "Big Jeffrey" Dobay. Dobay was a teammate and a dear friend of mine who better than anyone else, showed me that everyday can be made worthwhile and that almost any situation can be a reason to laugh :)..This fundraiser should have a good turnout and is for a great cause. I'm excited to see everyone and reflect on summer(which is winding down). Well I need to go get ready so im not running around at the last minute! I'll probably talk to you guys later..If not, i'll hit ya tmrw

WHAT'S POPPIN?

OH yes I'm back..in full effect now. Big ups to the homie Scotty P for lending me some studio space for our past couple tracks but now I'm finally got my ish back together. This means I can get back to work and get you these tracks that you and I both wanna hear lol.

Just a reminder my blog is open to suggestions I hope you guys remember that..Especially when it comes to music. yes, I will be delivering some tracks on original beats in the near future but, if you have any instrumentals you wanna hear me rip jus lemme know :)

NEW TRACK!!!! BOOM

Just because we love you guys sooo much and because people were starting to ask if we were dead LOL here's a brand new track for you to sample on

Boom!!

Scotty P, HeartlessMARC and CoulTRAIN

YOU'RE DOING WHAT?!?

"Are you serious?", "You're making a mistake", "When you stop it is SO hard to ever go back", "What did your parents say?!?!?!"

I got these questions alot over the last few days. I felt like an athlete being bombarded by news crews and interviewers who all thought they were giving me "original" advice. I appreciate love I really do however, it's a done deal now. For those of you who are unaware due to missing my previous post on the topic or due to your inability to take obvious hints, I have decided to cease going to college.

Dramatic Pause

Now that that's out of the way I guess I'll answer the simple question "Why?". Hmmm well I'll try to explain it as best I can with my typing-impaired fingers. At this point of my life I feel like I want to start "living". I've been a student for most of my life. I feel as though I go through this "cycle of expectations"..What I mean by that is I feel as though at every stage of my life there are these certain "expectations" that have been conjured up for me to meet in order to have the "best life possible" or to "reach my potential" as they say..

While I know that as the times are changing and society moves forward education is becoming more and more essential to making a good living..DUHHHH lol

I understand that but, i feel as though I want to try something a lil different. I mean hey, I could die 2 months, weeks, hell...2 minutes from now....When I die do I want to say I lived how I wished to or do I want to say I did what was the "norm" and was expected of me even though it didnt feel exactly right for me.. It's a debate, I held it and the "live life how I want to" side won.

Still not a good enough explanation for you? Leme put it this way, college in no way is "cheap". It is not a place for me to go into year after year saying I'm not sure what I want to be yet. Everyone asks "what do you wanna be?"..I tend to say "happy"..People chuckle and reply "Well go get that degree, a wife and a good job and you'll be happy!!"..nope..maybe that'd make them happy but not me. Whatever God has in store for me who knows..but who's to say the path HAS to go through college? And even if it does, there is no implication that that path is ready to be travelled yet. Time will tell. and I'll keep my eyes and heart open.

BEEF!!!!

OUCH OUCH OUCH!!! When I read up on this beef recently I jus knew I HAD to fill you guys in on it! As you all may or may not know Mr. Slim Shady himself aka Eminem has a lil "thing" for Mariah Carey who is now married to Nick Cannon. This is a lil complicated so stick with me and I promise you the end will be well worth it.

OPENING SHOT: Apparently Eminem ignited this beef with some lyrics from his song "Bagpipes From Baghdad" from his Relapse album..Here are the lyrics.

REBUTTLE:






Hmmmmmm Mariah are you sure you wanna do that?!? Well it seems that Mariah forgot that Slim is notorious for beef and destroying people in his raps....Papa Doc anyone?!? LOL


WELL HERE IS THE LAST SHOT BY EM..I WARN YOU...IT IS ILL:




Now Em brings up a few notable points in this rap:
1. He says that he has PICTURES that he is willing to release which were sent to him by Mariah of herself in compromising situations..ouch

2. He says that he has voicemails from Mariah begging to see him

3. He tell a somewhat graphic story of him having sex with Mariah and prematurely cumming saying that "if he is embarassing himself" by telling the story then "he is embarassing her too"

4. finally at the end he hints that he tried DP (double penetration on Mariah) though he eloquently states it as putting two CD's in one slot LMFAO!!

MY THOUGHTS:
I think Em went hard as fuck at Mariah and Nick *no homo!!. He ripped them apart. With all these things that Em says he has in storage (which I believe he has) the best thing for Nick and Mariah to do is to shut the hell up..This man is crazy and could ruin you Mariah...I'm jus waitin to see what's next

HEY YALL

Waddup worlllllld? Well I gotta few things I need to let off my chest listen up and listen good. First thing being about this blog, I'm not really feelin the response/feedback that I feel is necessary in order for me to want to update this thing. I get people saying all the time "oh, you have a blog?!?" or I get people who say "I read ur blog all the time!!" yea yea yea..The point is I'm lacking the "followers", feedback and comments I'm looking for. Yes, this blog is supposed to be about things in MY life I know that but, in the same regards I wanna know exactly what you guys would like to hear about so I can keep this whole thing fresh and interesting..The second thing at hand is I am currently in the process of searching for dope studio equipment so I can bring you guys what you've been asking for. Trust me, all of the raps you hav heard from me thus far have been written in 1hr. or less..Imma take my time for these mixtapes and they WILL be fiya!!!...Third issue at hand, I decided I'm dropping outta college....yea yea I can hear the collective groan and "WTF?!? you're makin a mistake!!" comments now. everyone jus chill...I'll dedicate a post to that decision sometime later in the near future.

SONG OF THE DAY

NO..it's not rap sue me

WHAT'S SO FUNNY?!?

I'd like to think of myself as a generally easy-going, nice person. I'm highly tolerate of many things that I hear and see in my daily encounters with people. That being said there are only a few things that really piss me off. For example men who hit/molest women and children, racist people (against any race), people who "gay bash" etc... Another thing that I really hate is when people mistreat others because they believe they are superior and laugh at people who are less fortunate.
I live in the city of Cleveland one of the poorest cities in the nation, we all know this. When I say I live in Cleveland I mean I live in the fuckin city of Cleveland, not the heights, not a suburb the actual city. Many people say that this city sucks blah blah blah..Some of it may be true who gives a shit. I can tell you one good thing about it tho. This city and my neighborhood gave me an appreciation for things and an understanding for why some people are as unfortunate as they are. I do not LAUGH at homeless people. I do not LAUGH at people who suffer from schizophrenia. Those things are not funny.


Why in the world would I make fun of someone who is "poor"? For christ sake compared to the kids I went to high school with I would be considered "poor". There's nothing funny about people who do not have homes or are tormented by "voices" that they hear.


"Well it's their fault that they're poor", "Stupid crack heads, get jobs"....These are the type of insensitive responses that really piss me off. What does this show? IGNORANCE

Honestly I dont know who to feel sorrier for, the kids who can't live without the latest blackberry/ i phone, or the kids on my block who cuss their parents out and run the streets at the age of 7. I volunteered at a soup kitchen when I was in the 5th grade. I gaurantee you if you go and volunteer for the salvation army or any other organization that aides the homeless you will soon find out there aint shit funny about starving or sleepin in an alley.

Please people, check yourselves..and just count your blessing

IN A TIGHT SPOT

Im at a pivotal point now. It really is decision time. Time after time again I have people ask me "Marc, wassup with this rap thing? Are you serious?". Of course when posed with these questions I immediately get defenssive and ask "WTF do you mean wassup wit it?!? I'm fuckin doin it". Now as I take a step back and look at the other person's point of view I realize that the question is VERY valid. Am I serious?

I've been up and down this roller coaster called music quite alot over these past few months. My main goal in life is to persue what makes me happy, simple right? Well music makes me happy, OK so everything is solved! umm not quite....I'm at a point now where I need to start producing. Whenever you want to do something a lil different than the norm (in my case put school in the backseat and possibly kick it out the "car" for music) you're gonna face adversity and doubt, naturally..


I'm used to people telling me not to do something so that part doesn't really faze me, the problem comes when self-doubt rears it's ugly head. Don't get me wrong I'm fuckin nice when it comes to my rhymes and I know it BUT, do I really believe I'll ever have that "opportunity" I'm searching for or is it all just one big pipe dream?? I guess if you wanna know the results you have to play the game. I am in control of my destiny. The only higher power in my life is my God. I guess I'm jus gonna have to go with my gut and hope that HE agrees with me

THROWBACK JOINT

Who wasn't feelin this joint?!?

WAT HAPPENIN?!

Ayyyy world...Wat's poppin? I woke up today with a smile on my face.. why? shit, i couldn't really tell you but, what I can tell you is today is gonna be a good day I can jus feel it. Some days I wake up and I have a fueelin that I'm gonna punch a niggas' teeth out and some days I wake up and don't wanna move. Both are irrelevent today tho..I feel productive and ready to seize the day. So here's today's plan as far as I know...

First I'm takin my cousin Aliyah to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame which I havent been to since prom! lol..I figure it should be interesting if I jus take my time and walk around. I'll possibly even be able to clear my mind of the other shit I've been thinkin about and get my mind right for this music I'm bringin you..

Anyway after that I believe imma kick it wit Scotty P and CoulTRAIN this evenin/tonite.. We'll prolly record some tracks but I know for a fact we're gonna end up ridin people and laughin at random stupid shit haha...

No matter what happens today I'm feelin pretty good and im sure it's gonna be a good day

IM BACKKKK

Ahhhh it feels good to be back home. Yes ladies and gentlemen the time has arrived. It is now time to officially get the Cleveland2Chicago mixtape crackin. My homeboy Scotty P is back and you already know my brutha CoulTRAIN is gonna hit u with some ignorance hahah. I should be rollin by the studio later today to lay down some tracks/ kick it wit my partners so I guess at this point talk is cheap. It's time for some action and I'm ready..Question is, are you?

**NEW BIG SEAN

Alrite alrite, before yall start claimin im D-ridin the nigga jus check out this new music video. I promise I'll take a lil break before I post anymore ish about him lol..but this joint is fiya!! Check it:

EVERYBODY WANNA RAP.....

QUICK EVERYBODY WHO IS THIS?!?! now im sure everybody reading this knows this is Drizzy Drake..You would have to live in a cave or despise hip hop in order to not know who this dude is...Is dude nice? YES..Is he dope?..YES..Is he the only one in killin the game at 21?...NO

SAY WHAT!?

Leme introduce you to one of my favorite rappers Big Sean. Reppin the midwest comin straight out of Detroit, Big Sean is making a name for himself in the rap game. After being signed by Kanye's G.O.O.D music Label and droppin the street burner "UKNOWBIGSEAN" mixtape..the future looks very bright for this young M.C..don't believe me? Peep this

He is without a doubt, one of my favorite artists out right now and

serves as a driving force in my quest to success.

REMEMBER ME?!?

LOL alrite alrite i know the pic is soft hahaha..For those of you who don't know in the picture above is myself (HeartlessMARC of course) Scotty P and the big homie C Quigz.. So why do I have this picture up? Good question, even better answer-> SUNDAY IS D-DAY..the official Cleveland2Chicago mixtape will begin production and should be distributed by the time you lil nerds pack up and go back to college to be doctors, lawyers blah blah blah like ur parents..Anyway like I have stated time after time again, we are not fuckin around. This mixtape will be fiya but dont take my word for it...download it yourselves. The mixtape should be realeased under the DJ-ing of my boy Telly Telz (aka The Tellicopter) I jus need to holla at him so stay tuned.

In other news YES, im still in Jersey and YES it still does suck here..lol I'll be back in due time tho..and you guys better clear some space on those ipods...

DIMEPIECES OF THE DAY

nice lil swimsuit competition :)

HELLLOOOO

Hey yalllllllllllllllllllllllllllll!! I'm in Jersey now visiting the fam waiting to hit the malls and beaches haha.. The weather's alrite i guess nothin too special but the "atmosphere" outside is just diff from C-town ya kno? Well anway yes, it is my birthday and thank you all for your happy b-day wishes. I have a lotta time on my hands now though since ima be here until saturday....Let's see if I can't get the last bit of songs for the "untitled" HeartlessMARC mixtape written and ready so I can move on to the much anticipated Cleveland2Chicago mixtape with Scotty P...stay tuned

MORNING

What it do peeps?! First thing's first, as you may or may not know my boy CoulTRAIN is throwin down tonite and just about everyone is invited. If this is the first time ur hearing this go check ur facebook sucka and if there isnt a event invite on ur facebook then find somebody we like that got invited and ask about it! lol...Anyway I'm not gonna dwell on that like I said, check facebook if you want any more details. So what's goin on with me?

Let's see, Last night I kicked it at Taylor's which was pretty good until the random kids took over. Yea yea I know I'm supposed to socialize blah blah blah..well guess what..it wasn't happenin. Those kids to put it nicely, were "interesting". But anyway after that I went with CoulTRAIN to J-money's house to watch Pineapple Express and I FAILED at an attempt for a hug lol. It's all good tho. I'm expectin tonite to be dope and it better be..If not then hey, I guess my high school classmates just prove the rumors about them sucking haha..I dont even know what to expect..I wanna be optimistic but optimism in Cleveland leads to heartbreak...

TWO MASTERS AT THEIR CRAFT

Kanye and Timbo make magic

TAKE ME OUT THE BALLLGAMEEE

So im goin to meet up CoulTRAIN in about 30 mins to catch the rapid to the Indians game. YEAAAA BOYYYYY!!! oh wait, THEY SUCK :( ..Hey don't get me wrong I'm no band-wagon fan I know my stuff but, I'll admit I haven't really followed the Indians this season..why should I?!? I remember the glory days of the Alomars, Thome, Manny, David Justice, Charles Nagy, Albert fricken Belle!!! Those days are long gone ughhhh..well at least I'll enjoy my time wit my homie...NO H0M0

GIRL YOU KNO I-I-I-I-I

Ahhhh in tough times we always need someone to lean on. No matter how big and bad we are or how tough we think we are, we all have our "weak" moments. As a human being I am no exception to the rule so I jus wanna thank those of you whom I may have leaned on lately whether it was through conversations on the phone or jus kickin it. THANK YOU..cuz you know shit get's crazy sometimes and it's always nice to know who's really in your corner.

DOPE

I jus downloaded Skype and this ish is dope..I'm talkin to my homie Brooke right now and this ish is raw lol..Hit me up marc.a.coleman or jus search my name!!

THE FAIL OF THE DAY

AHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAH

A PENNY FOR MY THOUGHTS

Hey guys I know it'sbeen a lil while since my last post hopefully you guys can forgive me!! Anyway I've been thinking about a lot of things lately and one thing I wanted to remind everyone to do is to give thanks today. Life is sooo short and we need to cherish every moment along with every person in our lives. Even if you are non-religious and don't believe in a "God" give thanks to your family and friends for helping to mold you into the person you are in one way or another. I realized that life is what YOU make it. I could die tomorrow for all I know..fuck it..I could die before I even hit submit on this blog post (knock on wood).... Point is if you fill your life with joy and happiness then don't you think life will be a lot more enjoyable and fulfilling then a life with constant drama and hate?

FAIL OF THE DAY!!

FOR ALL MY UFC/MMA FANS OUT THERE!!!

INTERESTING DAY

Hey guys sorry I didnt write a goodnight/reflection post last night. I didnt get home til about 3:30 am and believe it or not, I actually went to sleep! haha So lemme see lemme see. Well yeseterday was an interesting day. It started off very mundane and I jus did some lauundry, nothing exciting right? Well that was true until my so-called music "partner" texted (not called) me and ask for the microphone and stand from our studio and said "he had songs he needed to do". Now there's nothing wrong with this I understand someone wanting to get something done and by no means do I want to stop someone from getting something accomplished

Enter the shady part...

So I suggest that it'd probably just be better for us to have seperate studios anyway so we don't have to stay over each other's houses to get stuff done yadamean...BUT before I can even text back to suggest this a female friend of his that was supposed to hang out with us last night texts me and tells me that he told her we had "beef" with each other and a "falling-out" so we wouldnt be hanging out tonite..WORD?!? Either this chick is a fourtune teller or somethin shady is goin on here.

So to make a long story short, we decide we are jus gonna go seperate ways and split up the studio. I remind you that all of this happens out of the blue THROUGH TEXTS..So later on when I go to hang out with some more of my friends I hear from one that my ex-music "partner" was talkin greasey about me. REALLY?!? thas how you feel dog after I let you stay in my house days on end, giving you food and driving you places? It's whatever though. Point of the story that SDL mixtape I told you about won't be released on this blog since im no longer affiliated with that group, label, whatever you wanna call it.

WHEW

Now that that's out the way...I had fun with my peeps last night and today my cousin from South Carolina is coming to visit and Im lightweight excited. I'm livin life and waitin for my dude Scotty P to get back from Spain so we can get you this Cleveland2Chicago mixtape you've been waitin for! Hit me up peeps if ur tryna get into somethin today..holla at u guys later :)

GOOD MORNING

I woke up tis morning feeling brand new!! ahaha wats goin on guys? I can't believe i just slept until 1:33 pm! Well hey on the bright side I feel refreshed as ever. Hmm let's see what am I getting into today? Well I'm home alone for the day aand I'm always lookin for trouble, let's see if I find it. Anyway I'm not really sure what's on my plate today. Well I don't really like surprises but i got a feelin im in for a few today! Stay tuned...

NIGHTLY RECAP

I can't believe I actually made it to day 2!! haha anyway today was slow and pretty uneventful for the most part. I ended up waking up and getting my haircut finally!! LOL along withh that after numerous attempts to get our lame-ass friends to assemble me and coulTRAIN decided to call it quits and watch the WARRIORS movie. Cheesy but hey, that was my night! Hopefully tomorrow will brig some better crap for me to talk about..OH well we'll see...Goodnight peeps sweet dreams :)

THROWBACK JOINT

No explanation necessary..ahhh if life were like the music videos sometimes LOL

HEY YALLLL

HOP UP OUT THE BEDDDDDD YURN MY SWAG ONNNNNNNN!!!!. lol nah im not gonna do that to you guys again. Wassup world? I'm u and back at it. Nothin really on the agenda today besides gettin my haircut finally. I'm startin to look like a BUSHMAN hahah. Besides that my homie coulTRAIN and I have discussed buggin my friend waxman to have a lil shin-dig tonite we'll see how that goes :) .. Well since I caan smell myself I guess now is a good time to make my trek to the shower. I'll holla at u guys later

NIGHTLY RECAP

Alrite I'm gonna try out this new thing where I spend a few moments of my time before bed to reflect on the day and any lessons I may have learned. We'll see how long this lil tradition lasts lol. Well anyway today I learned a few things. Though it was a relatively uneventful day I still feel as though my character grew a lil. One change I noticed in myself was my reaction to gettin played. My ex today shot down my invitation to chill and get ice cream (on a friendly basis) and did it in a manner that inconvienced my self and other people i had made plans with..Uh OH so what do I do?!? Well normal marc would have let the F@*% YOU's fly but instead I merely shrugged it off as minor insignifigant wrinkle in my day..AMAZING..I actually let something go..sounds like somebody's changing for the better..and actually learning how to let go....BUt that's another story....

Anyway along with that I also learned a lesson about self doubt. Today there was an instance in which I wanted with every part of my existance to say something to a particular person but held back out of timidness...Are you f@*&kin serious?!?...well yea I am.. Hey you win some you lose some. Well what now?...Well seeing as I never go to bed before 3am anymore I guess I'll jus lurk on facebook, tweet to my followers who dont give a shit, maybe talk to somebody who seems to brighten my days :), or watch Will and Grace till I start feelin homo...hmm prolly not the last one...Alrite then..night night people..sweet dreams

I LOVE THIS SONG

If you ever REALLY loved someone you'd understand this song..it's beautiful btw

I JUST DONT KNOW

I'm at a pivotal point in my life and I feel like I can never find answers. I have been a student since the age of five. Constantly going to class and learning different things that were said to help me in my future. I am now 19 goin on 20 living a life with more "scheduled" classes in the future and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of "learning" and I jus want to start "doing". Degrees are overrated. As dumb as it sounds, yea yea I know nobody will trust me to preform sugery on them without first obtaining my degree but that's not what im talking about. I don't want THAT life, fuck it, I dont want any life in which I have to follow a scripted path to get there. I hate school. "Well why do you go?" Well for obvious reasons, one being that my parents tell me to DUH..Another being if you don't go to school it seems people look at you differently and start making assumptions. Well quite frankly I really couldnt care less anymore, school is waaaay too boring and waaay too expensive for me to force myself to go just because it is "expected" of me...I'm pissed right now and I need some direction

GOT DAMMIT!!

AHHHHHHHHHH im in the studio now and I swear I wanna pull out my taper lol.. But seriously though I'm havin the worst case of writer's block and when I finally write something I think its wack. Ughh guess im jus havin one of "those days".. OH well, everyone has them ..I guess the good thing about having bad days is you get them over with....

THROWBACK JOINT

Call me soft I dont give a shit..I'm feelin this track rite now! LOL

SO I WAS THINKING...

You guys know what I realized yesterday? No matter what I do I can never pause life. Follow me on this (and I promise I aint high rite now). I can take breaks, I can go to sleep, I can even go on vacations and clear my mind from my problems but every minute no matter what I do, I am getting closer and closer to my death..Pretty fucked up thing to think right? but it's true. So what do I do about it? Well I guess I could become emo or I can just make every second of my life count but I just want you guys to think about next time you're faced with a situation and you are scared to take a risk.